I hate you

You are a fucking venomous, bile spewing culture. And by you i mean we. We are a fucking venomous, bile spewing culture. We hate each other. All the congratulatory messages and well being you give each other means shit. You hate that person. For whatever reason, be it they are getting married and your single, they are having a baby and your single, they drive a nice car and your poor, they own a nice house and your poor. Their wife is better looking than yours and their boyfriend has a bigger dick than yours. That person you are, that isn't you.

You hate politics but decide to speak up only when others do. You hate racism but will gladly sit there and enjoy a joke that  belittles anothers culture, way of life or religion. You have no self worth. You live your life the way others say it should be lived. You have no self control. The people you put in power you hate, yet abide by what they make law. You only stand up when others have, you have no voice. If you don't like something, change it. Don't sit idly by and watch your world collapse because you couldn't be arsed. Fuck, i am you. You are i. We don't care and we will die. We all die. You will die. I will die.

The Earth has been raped and pillaged. Society has been raped and pillaged. You sit drinking your french water in little plastic bottles while people go without water. You pay obscene amounts to footballers, actors and celebrities for what reason, to watch them fail. You love watching someones life falling apart before your eyes. You love watching people tear their families and way of life apart in front of a studio audience. You slow down at the scene of an accident because your morbid curiosity makes you want to see carnage and death. You feed on the hate that is thrown at you and stuffed into your face via the 'news'. Its not news. Its hate mongering. Of all the things that are deemed newsworthy what really is newsworthy. What do YOU want to know about the world? The injustice in the world, the suffering, the illegal wars, the torture, the biological and manufactured terrorism. Is that how you want to live your life or bring up your children. In a world of hate? You make me sick.

I hope that the human race gets eradicated as all those fucking nut jobs and cunts say, what use do we have? We don't progress, we are stagnant. We haven't moved forward and will not. We are content. We are content with our little gadgets, our shiny belongings, our one-upmanship. We hate to see the suffering but won't part with money or aid because what hope do you have of changing anything? This is the future that people saw great promise and what future is this? Poverty is still widespread, even in the supposed 'first world' cultures. There is disease amongst the poorest of people that can be prevented by the simplest of vaccines. But we need poor people don't we. We need people to suffer so we can take the moral high ground and say 'We helped them' by donating a few fucking pounds a month or gave away some of your clothes.

I fucking give up. I hate you. You hate me. We hate each other, that's the way we live our lives and that's how we will die. In hate. Not in love but in hate. You bile spewing venomous person.

Advent: Dec 24th

So here it is, the Eve of Christmas. I didn't have work today so decided to get some last minute shopping done, which i did. Thankfully as I do hate shopping at Christmas. All done and dusted I went home to wrap them all.
We have this kind of tradition with my friends, every year now for quite a few we have met down the local village pub to catch up or just see each other as we don't all get to see each other in the test for various reasons. I got dressed up, grabbed a walking beer and started walking, got halfway and my friend was waiting for me in a car park, which was wierd but nice because she gave me s lift, very nice indeed. It was quite nice at the pub though some of the people that usually come decided not to this year. We just sat around outside and chatted, got drunk and had a merry old time

Another Christmas even drunk though thankfully not enough to have a hangover.

Advent: Dec 23rd

Had work today and only a couple of people came in. The rest of the time was spent chatting to the Manager and Area Manager, having a mince pie, drinking tea and checking and cleaning up. 

Plus as its about a week ago i don't remember much else.

Advent: Dec 22nd

Woke up about 2pm, as is usual after drinking till the early hours. I had to start my Christmas shopping today as i would be working Friday and probably wouldn't have time on Christmas Eve to do any shopping. So i decided to cycle into town and peruse the wares of Reading. I quickly got bored, not after buying some things for my brother and my dad, so went to see my friend who was working at Sahara. Fast becoming a bad influence on my alcohol intake. I opted for some fruit drinks, non alcoholic as i was a little ropey from the night before but i did have a Suffering Bastard cocktail that was very sharp and dry and woke me up :)

We had planned to all go for a Christmas meal and it was looking like Whetherspoons for a cheap meal and some drinks, so a few friends came to meet me in Sahara and then we walked to Hope Tap. It was stupidly busy however so we went to meet our friends at Back of Beyond, which was also rammed. We walked around the Oracle but every eatery was jam packed or a 45 min wait so we walked around a bit more and opted for Bella Italia on Queen Victoria St.

Thankfully wasn't too busy inside so we managed to get a table no problem. I had pretty much exactly what i ordered from that takeaway the other night. Though this time was lasagna instead of Spaghetti and two glasses of nice red wine. We chatted for a bit after the very nice filling meal and then set off in our respective ways to go home.

A nice festive meal with friends. Not bad for a Thursday

Advent: Dec 21st

Today was a busy day at work, it rained on the way to work and it rained on my way home. Lots of racing, lots of cleaning was done too.

I wish i had written these posts as the day happened because i have no idea what i did throughout the day or when i got home. I do remember buying a bottle of Morgans Spiced rum on the way home and drinking that till about 8am.

Advent: Dec 20th

Was a pretty easy day today, I worked and that was pretty much it really. My friend came for a few goes round the track, we ate pizza and The Red Baron just finished on ITV, which is a great film i might add! We had some kids come to race that were way too small, by a few inches but instead of saying no we got them out and they seemed to have a great time. Always better than sending people away, upset and having paid to race.

Went home, played COD and the day was done.

Advent: Dec 19th

Woke up and the plan was for drinks in town, well impromptu drinks in town. My parents took me to get my Christmas present as i didn't really want anything for Christmas. I generally hold the ideas that if, as an adult with an income, you want something then you can buy it. Yes extravagant purchases, like at Christmas, you generally don't spend on yourself but still, if you want that game/clothes/dvd then buy it with your hard earned cash.

So i asked for nothing, and got something pretty cool. That done and paid for i made my way into town and headed to Sahara for a few cocktails, a few got worse when i set up a tab and as each friend came i bought a cocktail for them. Quite costly though it was, i like spending my money on friends. We all sat around talking to each other and the staff as our friend was working. Paid of the tab, which was £53 and then also bought two tickets for the New Years Eve party they are having there. I try not to plan New Years as it's usually a let down, like most nights out really. So we went with it and now I'm going there. 

We left for Pavs and sat outside drinking and chatting but we left fairly early and even missed out on the usual trip to Turtle. I did have time to completely whoop Lee at table football.